What is the day going to look like as a result of my fitful night's sleep? Turns out I may have had some covert or subversive anger issues today. But first how to do a 4 count meditation. The power of the hemingwayapp.com
What is the day going to look like as a result of my fitful night's sleep? Turns out I may have had some covert or subversive anger issues today. But first how to do a 4 count meditation. The power of the hemingwayapp.com
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Transcript: Intro: 00:01 Imagine a conscious contact with God. So strong that no matter what you are doing or not doing that, no matter what your kids are up to or not up to, and that whether you've got the person of your dreams or they're just not cooperating, that you are happy content and at peace, a space where everyone else's thoughts, attitudes, and actions are beautiful and exactly as they are supposed to be. Well, this is the space where I like to play. My name is Misha Z, and this is today's. Slap. Join me as I shed light on the thoughts, actions, and attitudes that are causing you pain. And we train our minds to go to the capital S inner self, the joy that is waiting for us, the God with him.
Mischa Z: 00:53 I am going to talk about covert anger today. Covert, anger, and how I needed to, uh, have, uh, have awareness that I did indeed have some, perhaps what we would call subversive or covert anger issues. That's what, that's what we're going to talk about today. Um, when I, uh, was, so this morning, I, you know, did my meditation. Man, I slept not so well last night, it was interesting. Um, very tossing and turny. Very, very, um, very inter intermittent. Ooh, I think I'm coming across someone. I know Tony. What's the apps, man. Good, good to see how fun is that? Just got to say hi to Tony. Where was I? Oh yeah, fitful night's sleep.
Mischa Z: 02:10 And I think what's interesting about a fitful night's sleep is as I'm having fitful sleep in that moment, I can be very concerned about what is the day going to be looked, going to look like as a result of my fitful nights, sleep? You know what I mean? Does anybody else had that before? So you're in the midst of your fitful night's sleep and the mind starts projecting. Maybe we could call it, the ego starts projecting. Oh no, what's my day going to be like, I'm going to be tired. How am I going to show up for people? Um, am I going to be, am I going to be exhausted in all my activities?
Mischa Z: 03:07 What else could we say? Um, you get what I'm talking about? It could be anything, or, gosh, am I going to be fitful all night? Am I ever going to fall asleep? And the mind just starts rolling. And I guess the point of this little diversion is that, you know, I had my fitful night's sleep. I woke up, I was actually felt more refreshed than I thought it was going to. So that was a surprise. So all that projecting about I'm going to be exhausted and not be able to get anything done or whatever worries were happening in the fitful moment.
Mischa Z: 03:48 And I headed off to do my meditation, my hour meditation. I do my hour meditation and it's a fun one. Actually, it was pretty good. You know, it's focusing on what, you know, the thoughts would run and then come back to breath and I do a meditation on a four count, oftentimes. So that's what I was doing this morning. And when I see a four count, each out-breath is a countdown from four. I need to figure out a better way to say this, how that works. But so, you know, in breath through the nose; out breath through the nose. Mentally say Four. Next breath in out breath say three. Next breath in and out breath two. And you're saying this to yourself, obviously in your mind. In breath out breath, one. In breath, repeat from four on down. And whenever the, so what happens is you doing the four count? Inevitably the mind will start thinking about things.
Mischa Z: 05:07 And the awareness that I'm thinking about other things becomes evident is that a double, a double positive, the awareness becomes evident. That is funny. Anyway, the awareness that I'm thinking about other things becomes evident. So you come back to the four count and it's a very smooth, aware process. Lots of fun insights are flying around back to the breath. It's funny too, in some of those moments, I can have fear like, oh no, if I go back to the breath, the insights will go away. So I was definitely playing with that thought. And um, so I come out of the meditation. So the meditation is great, good hour meditation. And after the meditation, I was, I would say, surprisingly vibrant and vital. Full of vitality. I dunno if that's the right word, but it was refreshed. Shall we say? Yeah, it was refreshed. That's a great way to say it. So all my worries of I'm going to be tired all day... That may still be yet to come by the way, I might need an app or a new meditation session to find that refreshed attitude.
Mischa Z: 06:50 Um, and so I went into A Course In Miracles and, you know, I had a powerful couple of days. So A Course In Miracles, I'm reading, this is funny. I'm trying recording on a new platform and I lose track of, it's hard for me to find the time. So come out of the meditation, do my A Course In Miracles. And I'm just super, I was so calm and centered and connected. I think that that's a great word to say. I was connected. Like I have was just at peace in the moment, savoring my cup of coffee. Um, very, I hadn't perhaps I'd say spaced out is the right word. I would start my reading the A Course In Miracles. And then the next thing you know, it took me to some starts is what I'm trying to say until I was able to focus on it. The A Course In Miracles, section of a manual for teachers, uh, section three, I think it was, I can't remember what the name was, but again, I was not hard on myself for not focusing, right.
Mischa Z: 08:31 It can be frustrated and I'm not focusing. I have to start again or read that paragraph for the sixth time or that sentence for the seventh time. And that was very much, it's all good. It's all good. I was not tripping at all and having awareness that I was not tripping. So that, that there was very much the feeling this morning in the meditation and coming out in the meditation of the gift of the aware, observing the observer. Is that a way to say it? Uh, um, yes. So my mind was drifting it's it's one of those days. Thanks for hanging in there. If you've made it this far, really the whole point of telling you all about the meditation and such was to say, one of the thoughts that popped up is I was reading A Course In Miracles and I jotted it down was covert anger. I was very memories of my covert anger, um, issues. Had calm, subversive as well. They were so subversive to me and that I was able to definitely justify them. And so my rationalization was subverting my relationship, my happy relationships, how's that? Oh my gosh, Russell Brunson. If you're listening to this, you will not be happy. I'm not using fifth grader, lower words.
Mischa Z: 10:23 Oh my gosh. So many thoughts, streams piling through the brain. But so, uh, I'll, I'll close that loop, uh, Russell Brunson and many others, uh, you know, they say, Hey, when you're talking to the public, oftentimes a very effective way to get your point across is take, keep it simple. Like keep, you know, you don't need to use big words like that can actually distract from your message. And I think about that a lot. Cause I, I love big words. I love looking them up in the dictionary when I come across them. It's fun to, to sometimes, you know, look up words and then see them see that word materialize in your, or in my, um, conversations are writing at a later date. And as a matter of fact, to continue on that loop, um, there's a thing called Hemingway Hemingway app or hemingway.com, Hemingway editor or Hemingway app.
Mischa Z: 11:35 I think it's Hemingway editor.com (it's actually hemingwayeditor.com). I'll put the link, check the link in the show notes. Um, and by the way, does anyone else do this? Does anyone else like throw in the big words, thinking that will make you more effective? I know I do. So if you do, Hey, welcome to the tape. So Hemingway editor, I think that's what it's called. Hemingway editor.com. You can again, check the show, the links in the show enough, you can, you can put in your sentence and it will tell you what grade level you're speaking at and are the sentences too complex are like run-ons or things like that. Or, um, you know, are you using it'll, it'll tell you words that are like, uh, I'm trying to think of the word. Um, well it'll give you recommendations for like past tense, present tense or things like that, or it'll say, Hey, you can actually just omit this word. Fricking love that I've gotten in the habit of going to Hemingway editor.com and, and putting in, uh, sentences things that I'm writing and really using it as a tool to, to be more concise in my thoughts, in my writing and, um, fix run-on sentences and all sorts of stuff.
Mischa Z: 13:18 And it's really fun to use it and then send it out, send out whatever I'm sending out email or, or show notes or something like that. And then read it at a later date and be like, oh yeah, that is much easier to read than my normal writing. Anyhow, the meditation subversive, anger, covert, anger, and the issues that it caused me. And when I had awareness of it and the steps that I took to break free of it, that's what I was was, and am going to discuss. Let's do that for covert anger part two. Okay.
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